Going Under

I saw a quote the other day, I don’t know who it was by or where I found it but it was something to the effect of, ‘my life is moving so quickly I forget to enjoy it’.

This speaks to me so deeply. I’m at this awful point in my life where I simultaneously cannot wait to get out of my high school, but I also feel like my life is going a million miles an hour and I’m being left behind. I’m drowning in the stress of my life. I haven’t been blogging lately because I’ve been really emotional. I hesitate to connect to the internet when I am emotional because I want this blog to have my heart in every post, but I don’t want to let my heart run away without my head.

There are so many reasons I am done with high school. There are just as many reasons I am afraid of leaving so soon.

I’m ready to move on to a new stage in my life. However the next stages in my life are enormous steps to take. It’s terrifying that my entire future depends on the decisions I make right now.

It makes me so angry to think that my life depends on how well I do as a teenager but at the same time adults continuously stifle teenagers and treat us with such negative stigma.

So in short, release me from my prison; but also change is scary.